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Singing in the Rain

March 14, 2011


Trauma be my friend?

March 11, 2011

The movement for equality, which belongs to any and every minority, is getting lost in the majorities’ reverence for oppression. Equality, which is ultimately the exchange of mutual respect, is unattainable when reverence is perpetuating the us and them dynamic. Especially if it’s a us and poor them.

This Reverence for the oppressed is covering up the fear of their trauma. The oppressed shine a light on what trauma can make a person become, trauma’s potential to find anyone, and makes the rest of us ask what is owed to those it did find. Instead of allowing this reality to exist, victims are kept at a safe and reverent arm’s length . Like a pitied leper. Theres nothing equal about that. Even if you say that leper is a pretty pretty princess that deserves a much better city then your dingy normal one. How about you let that pretty princess make her own decisions, cuz lets be honest your whole leper-less city dynamic makes us lepers wonder what the fuck your hiding in there.

is it braaaaaaiiiins? lepers love brains.

Oppressive trauma is of course not limited to women or black people, or homosexuals, and neither is segregation. For example: 30% of children in the United States are sexually abused a year, but the subject is considered Taboo. There aren’t loads of people running around saying abused children are sub-human. It’s just taboo. So they are segregated to Lifetime movies, the Oprah show, or the 5 o’clock news far far away from safe normal neighborhoods. When in truth an average of 1 in five CHILDREN, not just little girls, are sexually abused in the United States every year. They’re everywhere. Whats taboo about that? Nothing. Whats oppressive about classifying something as taboo? Its saying a victim’s trauma is simply too traumatic to talk about. Which seems slightly presumptuous, unless you’re a leper too. In which case stop oppressing your fellow leper. You self loathing leper racist.

i’ve made them a race. what? Point is, the concept of ‘taboo’ is fairly oppressive.

On the Oprah show yesterday she had 200 men come on to speak about their sexual abuse experiences. It took an amazing amount of courage for these men to come on the show. It shouldn’t have taken as much as it did. If you got hit by a car and went on the Oprah show would you be said to have some astounding amount of courage? No. People instead would probably ask why the fuck you were on the Oprah show. But for some reason these men have to fear being seen differently by loved ones or strangers on top of choosing to talk about something very painful. Thats what bumps it up from a good amount to an amazing amount of courage. The world will see them as something different, whether it’s with reverence or hatred, they have little hope as being seen as themselves. MOLESTED CHILD is far too big of a label. Pity is a great segregator and comforts no one.

Think this has nothing to do with the oppression of the women or homosexuals or different races? Equality will never happen until the majority stops protecting themselves from the minorities reality. Whether that reality is being a women who gets called a cunt by a douche or being a sexual abused person who had their childhood stolen. The majority also can’t exchange protecting themselves for protecting the minority either. Equality only happens if the minorities of every subject are allowed to speak whenever however they choose to for themselves.

don’t censor shit unless its your shit. and if you are censoring something that is yours make sure you’re not hiding.

Thank you.

March 9, 2011


March 7, 2011

Frankly if one more person tells me that cunt is the female version of n*** – They’re going to be calling me a cunt shortly after. In order for cunt to come anywhere close to the N word, cunt would need to have a similar history as the N word. Makes sense? That would means cunt needs to have been used; 1 for a long period of time, 2 by a large group of people, and 3 at some point was exclusively used to reduce women to property.

The earliest mention that I could find so far was a dude from the 1700 saying that cunt is a bad word to describe a filthy thing. It’s necessary to point out that he was not talking about a woman but a vulva. Even more necessary to point out – if cunt was like the fucking N word he would have said, ” I sold my cunt at the market today.”

*Side note* I will say to his actually statement: sir, you know you like them. But maybe he likes filthy. Maybe he should call me sometime. From the 1700. and we can get colonial filthy. Actually no, i don’t get filthy with strangers, even if they are from the past. *Side Note done*

Back to my point. I’m going to get a book on the etiology of cunt, because though the paralleling of cunt to the N word made me furious it did spark my interest as to why perhaps this word is so hush hush. However, Wikipdidia in all its wisdom, was a bit helpful. In the 1960s there was a move from some ladies to eradicate all feminine words that had derogatory connotations. Based off of that, all you cunt haters out there should stop saying bitch or silly girl as well. Honestly, Respect where your idea came from for pete’s sake. Especially if you’re going to be so rhetoric-y about it. My question to you now is what oh what will you call me when I call you a cocksucker? cocksucker? Repeats are Lame, and for god’s sake I’m a lady.

And as a lady I really rather society move away from cunt being filthy and off limits while cock gets to be hillllarrrrious and swung around like a roofied girl at a frat party.

Finally lets be fucking clear – my vagina is not a racial slur.

I’m gunna go buy a book on the etiology of the word cunt now.

anger issues

March 6, 2011

so here is the thing. im gunna continue to write randomness and we will find ou together what imp defect means. my guess is that it means the defect of finding things funy when maybe…they arn’t funny.

but what isn’t funny when you want o laugh at everything.

so today i woke up after 14 hours of sleep feeling like a bitch.

and not really a bitch but a girl who knows how she feels and just can’t muster up the bullshit to pretend.

if im in this mood i don’t want you to say anything to me that can qualify as cute. Anything. Anything that is cute should be not said to me.

because honestly what i think is cute is telling you that i have the biggest dick you’ve ever seen and that it will make your weep hurt when i shove it down your throat.

I’m not sure why i think that is funny, other then the irony that i am a 115 pound girl obviously without a dick that couldn’t hurt, and wouldn’t hurt shit, if she tried.

but in the right state. i don’t want to acknowledge who i am.

the overall thing here is that if a tiny girl says this rather uncomfortable and rude thing to you: you could one: get really offended. OR you could realize the pure absurdity of the idea and laugh in her face. which would make any girl that would make this absurd statement happy.

if you cry. I’ll cry and hate myself for it.

get it?

i just sometimes want to aggressively assert myself as something else then i am so obviously am. So if i am so inclined to be that sarcastic to you about my very large dick, please laugh. do not cry. or we’ll be all crying at the end and no one will be happy about it.

and at the end of the day who wants to be crying instead of laughing really.

little things make a whole.

February 28, 2011

so i have a whole thing about what an imp defect is and all that mess but instead, tonight i’m just gunna write.

I think i most likely have had H pylori for the last 7 years. Its weird to think that something like 80% of the world’s population has this bacteria and lives with it for their whole lives. Not to mention all the other shit. like aids. But lets just stick with H pylori right now. If 80% of the world’s population are at LEAST in moderate pain everyday, and the pain makes them unable to nourish themselves even if they are given the opportunity….Maybe it’s gunna be harder and take a little more time for them to evolve their surroundings.

and maybe 80% of the population unable to contribute fully to the evolution of their surroundings is slightly too high when we are in need of reform to get us out of our GLOBAL economic crisis.

and if you think thats a stretch because im taking a small scale individual struggle and saying it contributes to such a huge thing like a whole country’s stability…

Look whats happening in the middle east right now. It is amazing. Not just for what it means for them, but what its reminding the world. Progress is influenced by the basic wants and needs of people not only their advancements in technology. Societies don’t only evolve when discoveries are made about production. Sometimes progress comes merely from impassioned ideas of what is right and wrong. When may not be fighting dictators but we still need impassioned ideas. For example: health care is a more important then giving tax cuts to the rich.

its kinda like pointillism mixed with lessons from elementary school.

wait for it.

if one of the dots in a pointillism painting decides to turn black or white or ignore its role in the picture as a whole maybe you won’t notice it consciously but the fact is the image you are looking at has changed even if its just a tiny dot. And if one dot says fuck it, other dots are gunna fuck off too. and then even if 10% of them ignore their role in the picture as a whole the picture will be effected.

my metaphors tend to get a little weird.

point is… point… point is while i am someone who tends to over use the phrase nothing matters. In fact Everything matters. Every small detail of every single citizen affects the society in which they live, even if its to a small degree. But if you have 80% of a population running at 20% of their potential because they are sick it works out to the entire population running at something like 27%. Thats a lot of wasted potential. Even if we say that the 20% are the real big hitters its stupid to think a group of people working at 27% of what they could doesn’t contribute to that groups instability, unhappiness, and inevitable sluggish progress.

maybe my math is a little screwy but you get the concept. And i think we all are feeling the weight of sluggish progress right now.

Its true that i am not a country. I guess. But I am a contributor to a society. And if the middle east has taught me anything in the last month its that i should give a shit about that.

Which is why i am going to find out what the hell sickness i have had for 7 years and get it cured. Because progress is hard to reach if you can’t get up in the morning. and i’ve got a lot of shit to do. I might not need to over throw a dictator, but i’d like to inspire.

ANd thats not gunna happen if im distracted with pain 24/7. Not because anything can stop me from trying, but because at the end of the day running at 20% can not produce the results of running at a 100%

and im not saying im just saying. maybe health care shouldn’t be a luxury if we want to get out of this economic crisis. Do we really need the strain of even 10% of our country working at 20%?